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December 8th, 2009
09:45 pm
One and a half hours from now, I'd be off to cold cold UK.
Thank you to those who sent me encouragements and for the prayers ((:
I've never felt so reluctant to travel before.
I'm going to buy myself a hunk of chocolate from Chocolate Factory before I fly.
Endorphins are greatly needed.
I await post-interview fun and shopping. DESTRESS is much required.
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December 7th, 2009
08:17 pm
I AM FREAKING OUT.
I am showing all the nervous tendencies that I would normally show when I stand before an audience.
And I'm not even in UK yet.
If I weren't me, I would roll my eyes at myself and tell me to stop being annoying, to calm down and to pray.
I really should heed my own advice.
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02:17 pm
There just seems like there is this shroud of sadness around me that I can't seem to shake off. I would most definitely attribute some of it to the lack of sleep, some of it to the gloomy weather, some of this to boring work that I'm filtering through and most to the thought that my interview with blond/brunette-haired and blue/brown-eyed men will be in less than 4 days.
In 4 days, it would nearly all be over.
In 4 days, I would be somewhat liberated from the pressure.
In 4 days, I would get to go shop and destress.
In 4 days, I get a break from my doctor bombarding me with questions.
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December 5th, 2009
11:06 am
I sit at a statistics course and I am lost most of the time ):
The presenter has a really funky accent.
I'm hungry.
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12:32 am
Two years on, at least one of us has moved on ((:
<3
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December 4th, 2009
04:30 pm
Maybe I like music only because it takes my mind off the many things I don't want to think about. Just when my ipod ran out of battery ):
Time is passing so extremely slowly. SLEEPY.
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09:27 am - Thank God it's Friday
Like Shanti, I was just contemplating deleting my Facebook account yesterday. Somehow the thought of being part of this huge invention of globalisation turns me off. Though Facebook has allowed me to chat with my sister while I'm at work and find my kindergarten friend. HE WOULD HAVE PUT AN ADVERT IN THE NEWSPAPERS TO FIND ME IF I DIDN'T HAVE FACEBOOK! (Or so he says he would.) So Facebook has let me miss the opportunity of feeling extremely missed and special. Funny how we still click after 12 years of not knowing each other, not talking, not being friends ((:
5 days to my flight. One week to my day or reckoning. My parents keep talking about the trip and how we should start getting prepared. It feels so surreal because I haven't really had the time to give it much thought with so many thing to complete before I do get to fly off.
I am dreading tomorrow.
1) I have to listen to 4 hours of stats. (I better learn something that I cancelled my driving lesson for.)
2) It's cell orientation. (My innate self tells me that I'm far from being Rah-rah and my two slave boys are not going to be around.)
I can't workkk. I'm so sleepy. I can't seem to concentrate and my thoughts keep wandering. I need sleep. I look forward to REST.
Thank God it's Friday.
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December 3rd, 2009
03:15 pm
Someone actually thinks it's a good sign to see that I'm NOT okay.
What's thissss?!
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December 2nd, 2009
04:26 pm
They say that being overseas does not mean you have dealt with the problem.
But being overseas makes dealing with the problem a whole lot easier.
Here goes another day of mindless typing, filling of online and offline forms and wading through papers and casenotes.
One week to cold cold UK.
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December 1st, 2009
07:31 pm - Crash and Burn - Savage Garden
I distinctly remember Sam singing this song over the phone before.
I don't know why he did but he reminded me of it again yesterday.
Today while I was feeling grumpy, I kept humming one single line to myself, not realising that it was this song till I googled it.
I just had more confirmation that I'm meant to head overseas. Sigh.
As excited as I am, it's tinged with a bit of sadness that I'll be away from home, away from everything that I've grown up with.
Current Music: Crash and Burn - Savage Garden
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02:00 pm
Funny how I can recognise from which band a song is from.
I never knew this song was in my ipod.
I have only heard one other song from this band.
I never used to recognise songs.
Current Music: Drops of Jupiter - Train
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11:17 am
I sit at the desk that is flanked by two windows, this huge cabinet between the two of them.
On one side, I see the blueblue sky with cotton candy clouds. On the other side, I see the overcast of grey skies.
I am so bored at work I really cannot take it. To think I've only been through 3 cases.
I'll probably end up with a whole barrage of random pointless posts today.
One of the stupid things I do:
Drink cold milo when I'm already freezing in the office.
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09:09 am
What happened at cell and what arrived home to on saturday left me rather frustrated, agitated even now when I think about it. It does make me think that we failed as cell leaders, or taking it a little further, even as friends to them. I'm thankful for what Sam said to them and in the tone that he did. I would never have been able to do that.
After three years, it feels like we're back to square one with them. It is so extremely exasperating that it took anger for them to actually realise what we've been trying to tell them nicely for the past 5 weeks.
Zhong En should have been there to see the show.
I need Koko Krunch now.
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November 29th, 2009
04:50 pm
This photo is EPIC!
hehehheheeh
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November 28th, 2009
11:24 pm
I want to strangle someone right now.
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November 26th, 2009
11:22 am
I thank God for BEAUTIFUL BLUE SKIES (((:
I thank God for my internship to help me learn and pass time.
I thank God for my talkative doctor.
I thank God for the heartbreaks, because I start to see how much love He has for me.
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November 24th, 2009
09:48 pm
If no one lived at home except my dad and I, I would be groomed to be an exceptional housewife and the home would always be peaceful (or quiet, depending on how you look at it).
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November 23rd, 2009
08:49 pm
If I'm still me and we can't click as well, does that mean you have changed?
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November 22nd, 2009
09:08 pm
I thank God for my cell.
Because all I ever needed to do was to be real.
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01:05 am
I remember talking to Shanti about this before.
That when we see old couples like those in the photo below, it makes us smile! ((:
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